Thoughts from a Mindfulness Approach course participant

It’s not often that you get to hear what Mindfulness is from the perspective of a course participant, so here it is directly from Pam:

Mindfulness is a term many have heard by now. Some may understand it to be the latest fad in naval-gazing, others may see it as the new fix or cure. I've asked friends and family (including those on a spiritual path)what they think mindfulness is, and they said that it's meditation, or another way of mastering our thoughts. We've all got our ideas about it.

At a taster session I went to last autumn, that was run by Anna Zannides, she talked a little about the practice of Mindfulness. We did a sitting meditation and I experienced walking with awareness through all my senses. I left there feeling more alive! Why, how you might ask. I was more aware of myself in the fullness of my environment. It was like stretching out and feeling muscles I didn't know I had.

I was initially drawn to go to the taster session, having searched for a way to stop thinking and acting on automatic - like a mechanical hamster on a wheel. I was looking for a way to stop taking so much of myself and my life for granted.

At the first session of my 6 week course with Anna, she asked: what is an unstable mind? Some answers thrown out might have included;
Someone who's off the wall
A person who is highly strung
An over sensitive person
I don't know what the other participants actually said, because I wasn't really listening. I was too busy figuring out my own reply which I eagerly offered.
"Being easily influenced and swept up with other people's opinions and circumstances," I said. My reply was based on criticisms from my daughters: for not listening to them and not admitting my shortcoming. Of course I had my reasons and justifications over the years, for not listening, (usually too much on my plate, or some variation of that). Nevertheless I took on the guilt.

Anna listened to the group's offerings and said that a busy mind is an unstable mind. There in Anna's answer, was my confirmation: I was definitely in the right place.

"So what's a stable mind?" Anna probed. I pictured myself sitting squarely with legs crossed and eyes closed in the middle of a hurricane; it is said that the centre place is calm and still. I shared my thought-picture with Anna, who responded carefully. Many people have the idea she said, that we must be like Buddha - but we are human. She continued saying that we don't have to remove ourselves from the goings-on around us, or even the ones hurled at us, it's about us learning to calm ourselves in the midst of it.

"Even the Dai Lai Lama has said he can get angry or upset at times." Anna said smiling.
I was wrong, but I felt like I was in a safe space to make a mistake and learn from it. In my first class, I got clear about what is a stable and unstable mind. Learning how to observe what I think and feel, and the way I think and feel - with acceptance of where I am, is all on the path to becoming calm. This seems more do-able than the picture I was holding on to, the one with me sitting in 'the eye of the storm'.

With this distinction made, I knew that I would love the peace and stability that comes with more self awareness and acceptance.

Next, Anna told us to walk slowly round the room noting the shifts of pressure on the souls of our feet and the shifting weight of our bodies from the left-side to the right. She also asked us to notice feelings and sensations in our bodies.


I could feel the spongyness of my trainers as I pressed my heel down on the floor. I felt the tension in my ankles as I slowly shifted my weight from side to side. I felt a little anxious about bumping into the woman in front of me and thoughts about walking too slowly also came crowding in. Anna gave the group permission to accept all the thoughts and sensations that each of us had. It felt liberating to know there wasn't anything to get wrong.

For homework, Anna wanted us to observe our thoughts and journal them. That was the end of my first week's class. How did it help me? It's too early to tell. Mindfulness is not a magic trick, or superglue, or a band-aid plaster. During the session, I was stopped in my tracks to explore some of my thinking and to experience myself and my setting more fully. That's no small thing.

Anna is very down-to-earth and explained mindfulness with lots of real, everyday examples based on her experiences and learning. I feel stimulated and ready to learn more at the next class.

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Is Compassion and Kindness the same thing?

One subject that we Mindfulness practitioners are often asked about is Compassion and Kindness. It is something that is often associated with spirituality and mindful living, so I thought I’d share my thoughts on the subject.

Compassion is best defined as having concern and sympathy for the suffering of others. It is very different from being kind, it requires a level of self awareness that enables you to see beyond your own pain. Kindness on the other hand is the quality of being friendly, generous and considerate.

The challenge for those of us who are in a “caring” role or that are practising Buddhists is that people expectation us to always be kind, caring and compassionate. Whilst that is our aspiration, it isn’t always possible to step out of the ordinary human habit to be kind and compassionate at all times, we are just ordinary beings after all.

Compassion requires Wisdom

“Idiot compassion” is a term that the Tibetan Buddhist teacher Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche used to describe the type of compassion that is absent of wisdom. Another great Tibetian Buddhist teacher, Pema Chodron puts it this way:

Idiot compassion refers to something we all do a lot of and call it compassion. In some ways, it’s what’s called enabling. It’s the general tendency to give people what they want because you can’t bear to see them suffering.

Compassion is giving someone what they need not what they want.

I felt compelled to write this short post because after working in a school for a while, it suddenly hit me what we are doing wrong, it is idiot compassion. We are not preparing children for the real world, we are not giving them what they need, we are giving them what they want and this is harmful in the long term and certainly not preparing them for real life.

In today’s society we chase all the pleasures and luxuries, avoiding any discomfort and hardship, even though life is surely a mixture of good, bad and ugly. We spend much of our lives running away from the unavoidable, instead of preparing ourselves for real life, one that is constantly changing and full of the unexpected. Life is just moments of joy with a mix of disaster!

As parents and teachers, should we not be giving our children the tools to deal with all that life will throw at them? Doesn’t real compassion mean we have to sometimes let our children and loved ones experience pain? How else will they be able to live a healthy life if they are never given the space to fail, to pick themselves up and become resilient adults?

Pema Chodron goes on to say that often we use compassion in a way that is harmful to others.

“Instead of offering a friend medicine, bitter though it may be when ingested, you feed them more poison at the very least, you don’t take it away from them”

What Pema Chodron is illustrating here is when we don’t say the truth in case we hurt someone, we don’t offer them what they really need and so we are not helping, we are just making it worse. This she says is not compassion, it is selfishness as we are more concerned about our own feelings than our friends. Real compassion requires courage, it is not about being a doormat, sometimes compassion requires you to stand for what is right. Look at people such as Gandhi, Martin Luther Kind and Nelson Mandela, they are examples of compassion in action.

Compassion and Mindfulness - The Stable Mind

Buddhism is often called the middle way, we learn to live with what is at any given time as best we can because it is the only moment that truly exists. As Mindfulness has it’s roots in Buddhism, we could say that it is also the practice of living “the middle way”. In other words, we live moment to moment, we don’t chase distractions such as short term pleasures and we seek happiness through a stable mind.

A stable mind is one that is not easily stirred by external events, it is a mind that even if thrown out of balance for a while, it comes back to a peaceful state relatively quickly. A stable mind doesn’t get lost in stories, it let’s them go without a struggle.

Someone with a stable mind knows when to say no, when to walk away and when a hard truth needs to be said. A really compassionate person doesn’t mind losing a friend in order to help them because real compassion isn’t about how we feel, it’s about what the other person needs.

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You should just go for it?

It is very much my moto in life “You should just go for it”, however I’ve come to a point in my life where I’m not too sure it’s always the best moto. Why? Because if you are not careful, just going for it can also be reckless and I have to admit I think at times in my life I’ve been pretty reckless.

Now being reckless isn’t always such a bad thing, it can make life interesting and unpredictable but at the same time it can also mean that life has no planned direction.

What does this have to do with Mindfulness? Well often we see Mindfulness as living moment to moment and that of course is pretty much mindful living, except as a friend keeps reminding me,

“dreams without a plan are just dreams”

If we are to create a life that is based on our values and dreams we must also have a forward looking perspective. This can sound very much opposed to living mindfully but in fact it isn’t. To be focused on creating a meaningful life, one that will be fulfilling and content is a noble aspiration. And the trick isn’t to live in the future, it is to have that vision whilst being able to stay very much in the present moment.

Dreams - Aspirations - Living in the Moment

I'm currently based in a school in London, a very challenging one at that and what I’m noticing is a little worrying. Our young people are living almost completely for the future and whilst that is of course healthy for young people, what is missing is a sense of reality and presence in the now.

Dreams and aspirations are unrealistic because they are based on what young people are seeing on social media, their “heroes” are people who are living materialistic lives that are not deeply happy. What I mean by that is that their happiness is completely reliant on materialistic gain which is never going to bring lasting happiness. It is so fragile that to base a lifetime ambition on materialistic wealth is unhealthy.

I guess we owe it to the young generation to show them that sometimes being content with the simple things in life is a real aspiration that can bring lasting happiness. And of course to help them see that happiness is not something external, it is a mindset that is very undervalued.

Should you just go for it?

Of course I would never advocate a life lived always on the safe side, that would go against my values. Perhaps finding a happy medium is best. Or perhaps thinking about calculated risk rather than just going for it. Have a plan, meditate on it, check how it feels in your body when you think about whatever it is you are contemplating doing and always have a plan.

I guess it’s never too late to learn, I’m still learning every day but this time trying to do it without jumping into the deep end without a life vest!

Thanks to a close friend, I now have a new moto:

“I don’t have dreams, I have plans”

A Day in the Life of a Secondary School Teacher


This week I had the opportunity to spend a day in a local secondary school. It felt a little strange returning to the classroom after four years and to be honest I was dreading it!

My mind was buzzing over the weekend, worried that I’d lose control of the class and there would be mayhem. However, I guess teaching is like riding a bike, once you’re in that classroom, you just know what you have to do. So it went relatively well, the mind stories were wrong again.

The first two lessons were year 9 Maths, not my specialist subject or my strongest but you just have to get on with it. When I first saw my timetable for the day I was a little worried, I mean year 9’s? I’ve often said they are the most challenging year group, a kind of limbo year, not quite keystage 3 or 4, just there preparing for when things get really serious!

It’s interesting to watch young people as they walk into a class, notice their normal teacher isn’t there and then start working out how they should behave with this random stranger. This is when it’s absolutely crucial to make sure you as the teacher gain control because if you don’t have them in the first few moments, it’s very difficult to bring it back. Lesson learned from working in a special measures school for many years, nip it in the bud before it gets too hard to control. Both classes went well considering my freshness in the classroom or maybe the students didn’t notice, I’m guessing they didn’t otherwise I’d have been slaughtered!

In lesson three I had a year 10 group (ages 14 to 15 year olds). Now I felt there was a little heightened energy with this group. They just returned from their first break of the day, probably starting to tire after a couple of lessons and all the other dynamics that are in play for a teenager at school.

What’s Mindfulness Got to Do with It?

Here I was in a classroom full of hyped up teenagers, feeling slightly vulnerable when one of the young ladies asked me what I do when I’m not teaching. I explained that I teach Mindfulness and she asked if I would show them how to meditate. And that’s exactly what I did. I guided them through the posture process and asked them to close their eyes. Some were very up for it, others were a little self conscious. We only spent a couple of minutes doing a short breathing practice. I certainly needed it and from the comments, the students said it helped. Well the lesson was much calmer after, so it was worth doing.

I continued the day with year 7’s (11 to 12 year olds) who were a little lively but by that time I’d pretty much settled back into the familiar role.

By the end of the day I was absolutely exhausted, as I was driving home I wondered how I had managed to do that for almost a decade, along with having three children of my own to look after. And I renewed my respect to all those adults who work day in and day out with our amazing but often challenging young people.

Whats more, I confirmed my belief in our young people who are mostly kind, thoughtful and well behaved. However I was also reminded just how easy it is for young people to be influenced and led into behaving against their own better judgement so they can to fit in. It is precisely because of this that we need to support teachers to do their jobs as best as they can. We need to support our school leaders to lead without having to look over their shoulders constantly. And we must ensure our young people can learn and flourish in a safe environment.

The Life of a Teacher


Sometimes I wonder if there are many jobs more stressful than teaching? A teacher isn’t just someone who turns up for an hour to teach in a class, in reality a teacher has many roles. They must be master planners, each lesson must be appropriate for each group at the same time as being personalised for the varying abilities, special needs and progress capabilities. Then throw in behaviour management, I’m going to say this is probably one of the most challenging roles because children are children, each with their own personalities, emotions and family life. Oh and these young people know how to play the rules, so a teacher has to be on guard to stick to the rules or be ready to be challenged!

Teachers are held to account by their line manager, senior leadership, Ofsted inspectors and parents. I can think of a few professions that could do with such scrutiny but don’t have anything close to it.

Then teachers have to be kind and understanding, even if they are being challenged or just plain tired. And for the most part, teachers are good at what they do.

Mindfulness made all the Difference

What I noticed was how different I was on the day. My attitude made all the difference, my constant awareness of how I was speaking, moving and projecting, mindful self awareness. This is where Mindfulness comes in, the ability to self regulate throughout the day so your own stress levels do not increase and are kept in balance. If teachers can help themselves to stay still inside, then the outer environment is easier to handle and that’s got to be a better way to be throughout the day.

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Can Mindfulness help improve Mental Health?

Mental Health is has been given a lot of exposure recently, its being covered in the media and even government policy. But do we really understand mental health?

What is Mental Health?

We all have mental health, it’s just the other side of physical health, sometimes we refer to it as emotional health or well being. We all suffer from poor mental health at some point in our life, it is natural, just like breaking a leg or getting the flu; we are all susceptible to injury and illness, physically and mentally.

Mental pain is less dramatic than physical pain, but it is more common and also harder to bear. The frequent attempt to conceal mental pain increases the burden. It is easier to say “my tooth is aching” than to say “my heart is broken” - C.S Lewis

There is no single cause for mental illness, it can be biological, psychological, environmental or a combination.

What does Poor Mental Health Feel and Look like?

This is where the lines blur, how do we identify poor mental health, when do we attach the label “illness?”

Some may show signs of declining mental health through a change in personality, how they process thoughts and interact with others. Often there is no outward signs, it is easily concealed, for others it is very outwardly expressed.

Poor mental health affects how we feel about ourselves and people around us. It influences our ability to make and keep friends and relationships. It hinders our ability to learn from others and to develop psychologically and emotionally.

Of course much of this is subjective, how do we really know if someone is “mentally ill” or if it is just their character? It is hard if not impossible to accurately diagnose mental illness. Our views of mental health have changed so much over history; there were times when a woman was “insane” for disobeying her husband. Therefore mental illness is still very much undiscovered and likely to change as we evolve.

How we treat Mental Illness

Until recently the most common way to “treat” mental illness was by the use of drugs. One could argue that we are only treating the symptoms not the illness. We also have many other therapies such as counselling, psychotherapy and recovery programs. All beneficial in their own way, for some it works for others it doesn’t.

I am not my diagnosis

What I’ve always struggled with is the question; do we become our label? Growing up I challenged the labels people tried to impose on me, what purpose do labels have in establishing who we think we are? I’ve watched children I taught as a secondary school teacher be labelled “bright”, “slow”, “academically challenged” and the list goes on. I wonder how many of these children grew into their labels?

In my experience, I have found people who suffer from mental illness as very emotional, deep thinkers. Some are creative, expressive and think out of the norm. Look at how Einstein was described:

Einstein's primary-school teachers reported that the child had a powerful and lingering distaste of authority. Coupled with his late-developing speech, some medical professionals have suggested this behavior as symptomatic of either autism or Asperger's Syndrome. 

I am sure there is plenty of cases similar to Einstein. In society we see anything that is different as being a problem, even to the point that recently “disobedience” is being labelled as a mental health problem. That has got to be worrying?

Mindfulness and Mental Health

Finally we have come to a place of understanding that mental health needs a different approach. I won’t for a second suggest that Mindfulness is the cure for all mental health issues, nor will I say it’s appropriate for everyone. As we have already established, mental health is too personal too have a one fit solution for all.

These are the reasons that I think Mindfulness can help improve Mental Health:

“The frequent attempt to conceal mental pain increases the burden” - C.S. Lewis

In Mindfulness we are taught to turn towards our pain. This can be extremely difficult for some and maybe even the first time that they are asked to do this. It is essential that when learning to practice Mindfulness you have an experienced practitioner to guide you, so that you can be supported to know when to turn towards and when to move to a different place when it gets too much. Mindfulness is a process of self regulation, at first we need someone to help us learn how.

Why turn towards our pain? - simply because when we pay attention to it, give it room to do what it needs to do, it can also begin to dissolve. This doesn’t mean it goes away, it just becomes less of an issue. We learn to be with it in a different way.

You can’t tell just by looking at someone what they are dealing with inside - Danielle Rupp

Mental Health is such a personal experience that the only real way to improve it is to work on ourselves. This can be really difficult for someone in the grips of a mental health problem and I guess this is where the use of drugs may help, temporarily in any case. Mindfulness is about self-discovery, self-acceptance and strengthening inner resilience. Through our Mindfulness practice we learn to accept that life isn’t going to always go our way, we learn to accept our failings and befriend what we see as our weaknesses.

In short, Mindfulness is coming to terms with the fact that we are only human

The practice of Mindfulness teaches us to pay attention, to see for ourselves what we are doing and why. With this increased awareness we start to take steps to change our behaviours, we can see and therefore we can do something about it.

The deepest pain I ever felt was denying my own feelings to make everyone else comfortable

What would happen if you suddenly accepted yourself just as you are? What if you could start to be kind to yourself? - this is what we learn through the practice of Mindfulness.

You cannot recover from anxiety by just staying calm

Some people are under the impression that Mindfulness is about learning to stay calm and relaxing. I’d argue that this is the biggest misconception. To learn to relax is a temporary feeling, useful at times but not life changing. It may help to stop the anxiety taking over but it won’t stop the anxiety.

Mindfulness is a practice that can greatly enhance how we live our life. It takes time and commitment to cultivate a moment to moment awareness of what we are doing, when we are doing it. We have to learn and apply Mindfulness practices, not for a day or a week but for the rest of our life. And in a society that is used to quick fixes, this doesn’t always sound ideal.

However if we really are serious about mental health, if we really want to learn how to live in a world that is constantly changing, to take better care of ourselves and be content, then perhaps it’s time to make a bigger commitment to ourselves?

If you want to know how we can help you bring Mindfulness into your life, school or workplace, please do get in touch.

Resilience is the key to happiness

If I asked you what you want most in life, I’m going to guess you would say something like, to be happy. It’s certainly what I would say, I think it’s the one thing that universally connects us all, this desire to be happy.

Why is happiness difficult to achieve?

Well to me the answer is simple. When happiness is reliant on external factors such as materialistic things or other people, then it can not be controlled. We can have moments of happiness but as soon as that external element changes or we lose it, then we are no longer happy.

It is therefore fundamental to our well-being that we strengthen our internal world so that we have the capacity to make ourselves happy. Does the fact that happiness is something you can create seem alien to you?

In her book The Regrets of the Dying, Bronnie Ware lists one regret as “I wish I had given myself permission to be happy”. If happiness is in our control, then that’s good news because at any given time you can give ourselves permission to be happy. Is now a good time to do that, if not now, when?

What’s the missing ingredient?

I’ve come to see myself as a teacher of resilience rather than of Mindfulness because to me resilience is the key to happiness. If life is going to throw challenges at us at any given time, if we have no idea what is around the corner, then surely we need to build our inner resilience so we can weather each storm?

People often come to Mindfulness in pursuit of happiness, to find a way to stop the pain and suffering in their life. Sometimes they think all they need to do is to learn how to relax and I often see their disappointment when I tell them Mindfulness isn’t about that. Relaxation is a temporary feeling, it easily lost as soon as something we don’t want or like comes our way.

Resilience is the capacity to recover quickly from difficulties.

To be resilient is to have the strength to pick yourself up when you fall, to keep picking yourself up, to not give up or to stay stuck in pain and suffering. Resilience is an inner strength.

We need resilience in all areas of our life, personal, intimate, work and leisure. Difficulties and challenges will come and go, it’s a fact of life. Because of that, I prefer to teach people how to be resilient, that is my type of Mindfulness.

How to become more resilient

Let Yourself Fail

The bad news about resilience is that we need to fall to learn how to pick ourselves up, we need to know what pain is to find a way to heal and we need to know how to fail to learn how to succeed. If we avoid failure, we are in fact avoiding what helps us become resilient.

The strongest people are usually the ones that have had to endure the most suffering. Look at history, the people who have left a mark on us are people like Ghandi and Nelson Mandela. They had to develop immense resilience to survive. Not only did they survive, they thrived through their challenges.

Accept Change

You can bet that something good is right around the corner just as much as we know the opposite is also a possibility. If things are not how you want them to be at this moment, then luckily you know it’s going to change because nothing stays the same. Wouldn’t it be better to accept that change is happening all the time and to stop trying to control everything around you? Instead focus on strengthening your inner resilience so you can pick yourself up when things are not going as you wish, then you are not easily knocked by life.

Challenge Yourself

This is one of my favourites. When I notice I’m a little scared of something, then that’s when I know I must do it. The more I challenge myself the easier it becomes. Nothing is ever as bad as our mind makes us believe. I remember when I first took a jet ski lesson and the instructor left me on my own in the open sea (or ocean!), the waves were high and rough. I thought I’d fall in and not be able to get myself out. I remember the instructor saying “the slower you go the less stability you have” so I had to make a choice. Go slow and lose control or rev up the engine and see what happens. To my surprise although I was scared, it felt pretty good!

I guess this reflects life, we can hold the break and live life safely or we can let go and live life regardless of fear. It is our decision.

Mindfulness and Resilience

Mindfulness helps us develop our resilience in three steps:

  1. We become aware of our inner talk and begin to see our limiting thoughts.

  2. Then we notice our patterns of behaviour which are our learned reactions. Note I say reactions because we are not usually aware of them.

  3. Once we become aware of our limiting thoughts and reactions, we can change. Using Mindfulness practices to respond rather than react.

Mindfulness gives us the tools we need to self regulate and develop our inner resilience. And then we can take charge of our life.

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